A god forsaken heart

All I wanted to do was to back-off. I wanted to end it all. But I ended up turning them into monsters. I turned them into emotional vampires. Guys who are looking for blood.

Danny was a very cool guy. I really liked him. But then the feelings were dying each day. I decided to back off. The day I called off the relationship I felt a hot chill run through my spine. The look in his eyes were capable of paralyzing my legs. That same moment, I wished I could take those words back. But I already said it.


The big Danny knelt down on the bare floor to plead "Lennie please don’t do this to me? You are so different. You are caring, lovely and understanding. Please what have I done to you? I love you so much Lennie, just please forgive me". I told Danny he hasn't done anything wrong. I wanted to be a good daddy's girl. That’s all. But deep down I knew I just lied. I was having feelings for someone else. I walked out on Danny with tears in my heart. Although the feelings were explosives but I was helpless. Danny was older than me with two years. He really loved me. I knew that so well. I was everything he thought of. Such an innocent soul, all his dream about marrying me all went to the abyss.

After that day, each time I saw Danny I felt guilty. He stayed close to my house. Danny became a

rogue. He started doing a lot of bad things. He abused ladies, drugs and was terribly rude to his parents. I went away with his soft touch. He was now hard and evil. He was finally sent to jail after he impregnated and beat up Riley whose father was a soldier. Riley and I were chorister in the same church. Even with the plea from our pastor, Riley’s Dad wouldn’t listen. He stopped Riley from going to church and sent her to her grand mum in the village, in Lokoja. Unknown to me, I had begun a very catastrophic sequence.

When the soldiers came to arrest Danny, he pleaded for a special request. His request was granted but not after he was given some serious beating. Due to the way he was wailing and begging, the soldiers obliged to him.

He pleaded to see me, my house was just a few distance from his. The soldiers brought him to my house with hand cuffs. A small crowd also accompanied them to my house. And with blood covered lips and swollen eyes, Danny said these words to me, "Lennie, all this is happening to me because you turned me into a monster". Everyone who heard him became very pitiful. I cried there and then like a baby. I told Danny to forgive me but all he said was "May you find peace". I stared at his bare chest. His shirt has been removed and it was the boxer I bought for him for his 19th year birthday that he had on. I ran into the house, clean my eyes, knelt before my television and said another prayers. I prayed for forgiveness. And it was only a few days later when my god-forsaken heart fell in love with Victor. Victor was my pastor’s son.

Ezekiel Efeobhokhan
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